The answer of wait from God can be so frustrating! Let’s face it!
You pray… you want God to give you the green light! You might even fear that He’ll say no. But a wait, just makes you feel like you are in limbo! I can hear someone saying, “What am I supposed to do with, ‘wait’?” Well, my answer is to do just what He says. Wait!
The trick is to wait graciously, patiently, while trusting that He has not forgotten about you.
I don’t really like waiting either. Yet as I wait, I rehearse to myself that He loves me, He hasn’t forgotten about me, and maybe there are other people or circumstances that need to be worked on before I can get a yes from Him. Besides, when I focus on praying and/or helping someone else the wait doesn’t seem so long.
And let’s admit it: sometimes that “thing” that we were praying about, with the passing of time, comes up to not being that important after all.
Share what you do while you wait on God!
6 months and more have passed since I first prayed a prayer. I prayed the same request to God day in and day out. I prayed about this matter sometimes several times a day.
He didn’t do as I requested. He said no.
He has said no to my prayers in the past, but not to anything like this where I desperately thought I needed Him to say yes. He actually said no.
So all I can tell you for now is that when He emphatically says no:
Have it out with Him! — Give your real deal response! (You might not like what comes out of your mouth. But you can’t hide it from Him anyway. He already knows what’s in your heart.)
Find you way back to Him.
Don’t worry about the speed at which you arrive. He’ll be there waiting.
I actually made it to day 100! Praise God!
There is much to say about the journey. I am grateful to God for giving me the desire to execute the challenge to myself. I am glad that I could face myself with the weakness of not stopping to talk to God more often and then I could work at doing better.
The highs of the prayer journey:
— executing the discipline to follow through on praying, which included making myself to go pray with my church’s prayer group. (I had to go directly after 8 hours of the workday.)
— having a sense of balance about my life
— praying 97 of the 100 days that I intended to pray
— remembering to pray for others such as family members, co-workers, local politicians, missionaries, and even President Barak Obama.
The lows of the prayer journey:
— missing 3 days of prayer
— beating myself up for the days I missed praying
— beating myself up for the days when I felt like I hadn’t prayed long enough or that it didn’t “feel like” I connected with God.
Another item of note: I noticed I “spoke in tongues” more frequently during the prayer challenge. I can only assume that my consistently talking to God freed up the Holy Spirit within to manifest Himself.
Oh Father, help me be forthright with You. Let me not play the mental game within myself that You do not know where I am, who I am, and what I think. No night is too dark, no cavern so deep, nor no mountain so high that You can not reach me.
No matter the circumstance, when You call me let me be able to say, “Here I am Lord. I knew You would be looking for me.”
Everybody needs a rock! Jesus was referenced to be the rock in the weary land in Isaiah 32:2. We all need a place of stability and shelter. Thank you God that you have provided Jesus to such a One for us.
I was so excited about Friday’s indication of blessing that I started looking for the scripture that went with the thought “the abundance of rain.”
I couldn’t find it! U-G-G-G-H! 😦
God kept bringing the concept to me.
1. Later that Friday evening the devotional leader sang :Let It Rain by Bishop Paul S. Morton. It’s a song that talks of “opening the floodgates of heaven”, rain being a literal and figurative blessing from heaven.
2. The preacher this morning mentioned it in her message!
Finally, I found the scripture! It’s I Kings 18:41 . Elijah tells King Ahab to get down from the mountain for he hears the sound of the abundance of rain (after the area has had a 3 -year drought).
Here’s to the rain!
Today: God gave me a quick answer to yesterday’s sin.
You know that I told you that I got angry at a family member. I got angry because of an insulting comment unto me. I retaliated. I wanted to do SOMETHING so that the person would stop emotionally hurting me. Surely, he should feel some consequence for his action. He should not hurt my feelings so deeply and just laugh about, not recognizing nor acknowledging my hurt!
Shortly after my sinful action, I began to regret it, knowing that “vengeance belongeth to God”. I prayed, “Father from now on let a person feel the pain that she or he has caused me. Not a physical pain necessarily, but a consciousness of my pain. And let that be enough for me. If retaliation is to be given let it come from You, not from me. Retaliation brings me no joy, but great remorse. I know in trying to take the matter into my hands I have sinned against thee. For vengenance belongeth to You. Please take away the need for vengeance/retaliation away from me.”
I was reminded via a bible lesson that my retaliation was a result of my feelings of “being wounded” My anger did not necessarily have to lead to sin, but since my response was wrong, my action became sinful.
Note: The family member’s insulting comment should not have been said. And I should not have responded to it as I did. See St. Matthew 5:21-25. Our behaviors could lead to hell fire in the long run and, at the least, was immediately displeasing to God.
Alas, another reminder of how I need to depend on God for daily righteous living!